Fast Week

I remembered saying that I'll be updating what happened to our awesome party last, last Saturday, but apparently that wasn't the end of it. I never expected the party chains that followed after that, so I've been so drunk the whole week that I can't remember much of anything. LOL.

It's been ages since I got drunk stupid, and when I say stupid, I mean STUPID. I'm a talker once alcohol sinks in. There was this guy who I really liked, and I totally spilled my heart out to him. LMAO. Talk about embarrassment, I had no idea how to face him the next day. Aside from that, I threw up--and good thing not on him. I would probably die of shame. XD.

But good thing that didn't turn him off. I swore off alcohol a few days after that. We'll have another reunion after Christmas. I'm looking forward to it. Everything's almost planned out.

Right now, I'm wishing that time would slow down a bit. I can't keep up with my thoughts. Everything's moving so fast. But it feels fun. I feel like I'm alive again. ^_^

Freakin' Cool Partay Eva

Wow. I cannot believe I didn't post anything about our elementary batch reunion last night. I totally spaced out.

The party was amazing! Just waiting for the photos to be uploaded (thanks Morris ^_^). It's too bad for those who didn't come, they missed a hell of fun, and I AM NOT exaggerating. Everyone just completely clicked together like 10 years didn't even pass. It was dramatic, emotional, crazy and I loved every minute of it. I can't wait for the next one.

Anyway, for the Licean 2K, thank you for making me a part of that memorable moment *winks*. Thank you for all of those who came and those who made this possible, especially to my cousin, who unfortunately, wasn't able to attend.

So, I'm totally beat, and I need some shut-eye. I'm going to update this later. Hopefully I'll be blogging about more reunions in the future. Love ya'll! Peace out.

More Art

This is similar to my crayola art in flickr.com and I've always wanted to draw a digital version. I think it looks cool, but not as good as the first one.

I like drawing faces, but most of the ones I draw pretty much look the same. I'll keep on drawing until I can actually draw a more realistic face.

I saw a photo similar to this drawing and I thought it would be nice to create one of my own. I like the outcome but I feel like there's something missing in this drawing.

Art For A Cause

I've been thinking about how I can help other people who are less fortunate. I really like what Ready or Not Foundation is doing with helping out children. But the thing is, I live in a third world country and I have really nothing to give. I want to help out too, but I don't know where to start.This problem made me think of alternatives. Then I thought maybe I can make something.

I can draw, just not that good. But I can create amateur sketches and I think I can use that to raise some money to donate. I'm not really sure if people would be interested in my illustrations, but I figured it's worth trying. After all, it's for a good cause.

 

My second idea would be to make greeting cards or those wristbands I made a few months ago and sell them online. It would be easier to donate the proceeds online than through money order, and I have no idea how that works.

I'm thinking I'm not being very creative with my ideas, but I'll figure something out. Every penny counts and each can do a lot, so I'm not losing hope. I'll find a way to help out. I just have to think harder. ^_^

I'm "Serious"

I'm experiencing a typical first week of a semester. Our professors had decided to prolong their vacations by not attending their classes today, which meant longer vacant periods for us. I don't really mind them not showing up, what I mind is that I have to wait excessively long hours for my next class. This must be one of their strategies to torture students. It's working pretty good.

I have so much free time in between classes that I decided to study. I couldn't believe it. I'm actually studying ahead for my class. Two weeks indoors did a lot to me. Maybe I'm just bored, but I am trying to be serious this semester. I don't think I'll survive if I had to stay up late every night to study. But of course, I know myself better than anyone, which means that this drive won't last long. I'm betting before the middle of the semester, the laziness would kick in. I'm never the one to rely on when it comes to focusing. I'm easily amused and I have a short attention span.

I couldn't help looking at the fun part of life most of the time. Dwelling too much in the dark does that to you sometimes. It gives you too much hope that you become overly optimistic, kind of like coffee. Anyway, I better go back to studying. I want to get high grades on my preliminary exam so I won't have to beat myself up too much during finals.

My Role Model

Jeremy Sumpter supporting the Ready Or Not Foundation in Corpus Christi, TX

To know more about this foundation visit: http://www.readyornotfoundation.org/ 

 

Visit Jeremy's website for more photos and to know his other charity works at: http://www.jeremysumpter.com/ 

How Young Can You Get?

I've been reading a lot of other people's personal blogs and visiting different kinds of forums, and what I couldn't help notice were these teenagers and their endless rants about how their life sucks and how much in a hurry they are to grow up. I've watched this movie called 17 Again and the main character, who was played by Zac Efron, said that when you're young everything feels like the end of the world, which I have to agree. I have ranted about how my life sucks a few years back, but the difference between those kids and me is that I never wished to grow up.

When you have been brought to a good life, it feels like you have so much problems when in reality you're the one who's really lucky. On the other side of that, those people brought up to witness horrible things only wishes for the reality to stop. When my life came crashing down, I only wanted to remain in my old perfect world. Things were normal then--there was no pain to feel but bits of cuts and bruises that goes away after a few hours.

What teenagers don't realize is that their life isn't as bad as they think, and if I had the chance to remain a kid forever I'd take it. It wasn't my choice to grow up early, life had decided that for me. Kids are lucky when they have someone to run to when they needed comforting, I didn't have that. It was the other way around.

It was a good thing that I've learned to become optimistic, nothing good will ever come if we dwell too much with our bad memories. That's why I try my best not to worry about things, it makes you feel old. I want to be as young as I can get, but not totally mental of course. Having fun isn't really such a bad thing even if you're world is falling apart. It helps heal the most painful wounds, all we have to do is let the pain go.

First Day Bore

Well, it's officially the beginning of the semester. I can't believe it. I don't want to believe it. I was having so much fun not having to worry about waking up early or staying up late. I also loved not having to read books because I'm compelled to. Those were the good old days, if only my vacation could last a little longer I wouldn't be feeling this way.

Anyway, I just found out that I have 3 math subjects, and 2 of which had computer application. It doesn't make sense to me, and I do believe it never will. My future is dark enough and this had to happen. (x_x)

To make my life worse, I am forced to take a Filipino subject--which I have no problem failing. I could already imagine countless sleepless nights and studying hours. Ugh! Could it get any worse? Of course it can. I haven't actually met my professors yet. What a nightmare.

Made Something

I had some free time last semester and I decided to focus on crocheting. It's one of my hobbies. Anyway, I was messing around with some yarn and I wanted to make a headband. After getting half of it done I got a little lazy. So I turned it into a wristband instead. I got some extra buttons I've been wanting to use so I thought it would be perfect for this experiment. This is what I got.

 

I made other colors and my friends really liked it so I thought of selling them. So I made a few extra money with these. I'm thinking of selling them online but they kind of take a lot of time to make, so I'm thinking of just trying out new styles and selling them locally. It would be nice to sell them online though.

Come Away With Me

I see it. The world hidden in the deepest and darkest part of our mind. It screams a powerful cry, asking you to let it out. It calls you by your name. Won't you try not to look away?

I see it. The world hidden beneath what's real, inviting you to come in. I jump into the unknown, my mouth thirsting for adventure, and it finds me. Can you see it? Can you see beneath what's real?

My heart laughs as I dove in, eager to see more. I felt myself drowning deeper and deeper into what is only mine to see. How I wish for you to see it too. Won't you come away with me?

Would you like to see beneath what's real? Then set your worries free, and I will show you the depth of your dreams. I promise much delight, and you will want none but to stay.

Take my hand and come away, for we shall dive into the bright unknown. We shall seek what has once been lost in the darkest and deepest part of this hidden world.

Come away with me and let go.

I Do Believe In Fairies I Do I Do

I found an old DVD of the Peter Pan movie in my room last night. I was thinking that I needed a little doze of fairytale for the day so I watched it. The first time I saw the movie I thought: Peter Pan is cute (LOL). I think I was in high school that time. I haven't seen the movie after that, but I really loved it because of the boy who played Pan, Jeremy Sumpter.

Anyway, I was alone and bored. I watched the movie, studying it for some inspiration for my novel and I was like WOW. The story was really beautiful. I've never paid attention to it because I was too fixated on Jeremy. I still think he was cute in the movie and he played the role well. I also liked the girl who played Wendy, Rachel Hurd-Wood. She had a very lovely face.

Peter and Wendy's love story in the movie was remarkable. I actually felt heartbroken in the end. It was like Romeo and Juliet, except what kept them apart was their world and not their families. The romance was subtle but made an incredible impact on me.

I sort of wished it ended differently--that Wendy would choose to stay with Peter, but the fairytale didn't end that way. I guess the sad ending made it beautiful, but it got me hanging. I wanted to know what happens next and what Peter decided to do as Wendy continued to grow up.

I knew there were other movies that showed Peter ending up with Wendy's descendant but I think the Peter-Wendy tandem is much better. This movie made me see this fairytale in a new angle and I've considered it my favorite. I love it so much that I think it's better than Twilight.

I think I'll watch it again. I can't get enough of it. The only thing that I didn't like about it is that every time it'll end, it ends up breaking my heart.

First and Too Late

I didn't actually leave home for school at 3 AM. I left around 3:30. I got #1 on their lame numbering system. I'm still not happy about it. Lack of sleep makes me really cranky.

Anyway, it was dark and cold this morning so that pretty much added to my irritation, not to mention the long wait before they let us in. I'm wishing not to experience something like that, ever.

I can't really say that I'm happy being first. If it wasn't for this dumb system, I would've already encoded my schedule 2 days ago. What's more annoying is that one of the subjects I was hoping to take in advance was already closed. I can't stand their incompetency, this was their fault.

There's nothing I could do but to let out an exasperated sigh. It's not like I could really do anything about it. They're going to make me run in circles again just for nothing if I even tried. All I'm left with is this annoyance which might not fade until the first 2 weeks of school. What's the point of being first if it's too late. I wish karma would bite whoever implemented this system on the ass. They should experience the same thing. It's only fair.

System

I thought I was early when I went to school today to encode my class schedule. I was just about to enter the gate when I heard the security guard said that there were no numbers left to give out. It was only 8 A.M.

Just in case you're wondering, our school suddenly implemented this numbering system that only allows them to process about 800 students a day. Imagine how many college students are there, and we only had 5 weekdays before classes begin.

I hated this new system. A lot of students don't live as close and my fare money is limited. In addition to this burden was the storm-like weather we had to endure.

My school doesn't seem to care much for their students. Even during the storm Ondoy, they didn't even bother giving those who were stranded shuttle service to aid them from the flood. I consider this institution lazy, irresponsible, thoughtless, and unorganized.

This is not a hate note though. I just feel like I need to voice this out. They might have their reasons, but I doubt that it serves any of the students' interests. Now I'm left with no choice but to leave home around 3 A.M. and hope to be the first in line for their so called number system.

This morning I heard students talking about arriving to school at 5 A.M. Does the school even think about the danger their putting their students in with this new system? Who knows what kind of psychopath is out there waiting for an opportunity like this. I doubt the school would even take responsibility if anything bad happens. I'm guessing they'll only change the system when something goes BADLY WRONG. It'll be too late by then.

It's annoying when you see systems like these in my country. Even the government operates the same way. They implement faulty systems and doesn't seem to think things through before executing it. Then something goes horribly wrong and that's the only time they'll do something about it. They will publicize implementing a new and efficient system to show everyone what heroes they are and I'm left to say "Now you start thinking." when it's already too late and the damage they're preventing had already occur.

All in all, I'm not very happy with the way they're running things around here. Everyone wants change but fails to fight for it. One thing I'm sure about though is that we need smart selfless people who would put the public's well-being first than just let them deal with irritating faulty systems. Think people, think.

Issue Resolved

Yay! Got my computer fixed. Now the hard part is getting all my files. I got my novel stored up in my flash drive, but I'm not sure if I can continue as of the moment. I'm still bitter from the fact that I spent P350 for nothing. I could buy a box of pizza with that. What a shame. *sigh*

Not sure where to go from here. I need cash and I'm considering working in a call center again. It's a death wish I know but what are my other options? Jobs are so scarce here, even adults resulted to begging.

Anyway, I'm happy that my computer is fixed. I can start putting my life together again ( XD so dramatic).

Idle

My novel writing days have come to a halt as my computer remains unfixed. I have to keep track of my ideas so I wouldn't forget the main theme of the story. I'm wishing for things to look up after today, but the weather seems to imply a bad omen.

It wouldn't be bad if luck decided to smile back at me. I mean I'm already broke, but fate seems to want to squeeze out every single cent from me. I have a reason to believe that this novel shouldn't be written. It does hold too much secrets. But it will give people a new thought to think about. The definition of the thin line between fantasy and reality.

Anyway, I'm just writing to keep everyone updated with my novel. I just wish I don't feel as idle.

Tweet

I love twitter. It makes you feel like you're connecting with the rest of the world. For those of you who don't know what twitter is, it's actually a micro blogging website. You basically post brief shout outs and people who follow you will be able to see it. It's like the facebook wall, but here you don't need friend requests to follow someone.

It's a great place to gain different information like news and current events. I mostly follow celebrities to get an idea what their lives are like. It's amazing that they still have time to tweet with all that work they do. I'm currently following Oprah, The Ellen Show, Peter Facinelli (Carlisle Cullen), Ashley Greene (Alice Cullen), Adam Lambert, Josh Groban, Lady Gaga, Katy Perry, Barack Obama, and Billy Burke (Chief Charlie Swan). I'm also following a local celebrity Charice Pampengco.

Anyway, if you happen to drop by the site and decide to create an account, feel free to add me to your following list. Here's my twitter profile. aniahx

I will follow those who follow me. It's a very fun and addictive activity. You'll know what I mean once you start tweeting. ^_^ See you there.

Abused

There are many evil people in this world, as much as I hate to admit it. They take, giving you the impression that they're returning something back. It's a lie though. Opportunities are much welcomed by those who swims in greed. What's worse is that those people who tries to be honest becomes corrupted with the hatred they have created. They too will swim in greed, becoming selfish to protect themselves from this abusive world.

We try to see this world as a beautiful place, making most of what we can. But in reality it's ugly. An endless sea of masks covering the hideous lie beneath their thick skins. There's so much hatred in this world...But we refuse to see it.

Why do we hope? Is there anything good to hope for? Is there really such a thing as a bright and happy future? Or is this a lie we tell ourselves to make all the ugliness go away? This world is ugly and we know it. Even the beautiful things eventually turns ugly.

They will take, and take, and take, until there's nothing left. And they won't give anything back.