Yield Avenue "Tungkol Sa Pangarap"

The lead singer is a good friend of mine, and we used to go to the same high school. I've seen them perform live and they totally rock! This is one of their music videos. I love this song. Some of you might not understand it because it's in Tagalog, but for those Filipinos out there, I present to you YIELD AVENUE!

My Lame Drawings

I wanted to practice portrait and anime drawing. I still need more practice. These illustrations aren't good enough.

 

 

Looking For Tinkerbell

I've been really busy with college stuff that my mind has become too tired to make use of my imagination. I can't picture the scenes for my novel. If only I have more time to relax, but I'm having a hard time keeping up with my major that I can't even think of relaxing. "Just three more years," I kept reminding myself--it's not very encouraging actually.

I need to place myself in Neverland, or some deep fantasy world to unleash my imagination. Movies help but I don't have time to watch one. "Just three more years..." But I'm not really sure if I want to be an accountant. I just like how much they're earning, but I don't like what they do to earn it. It's too much stress for my taste, and that's not good for creativity.

Where is my muse, my fairy, my Tinkerbell?

Do-Over

Isn't the new year supposed to give you a chance to have a fresh start? It's like a the moment when you press the reset button so you can pretend that everything that went wrong can be fixed. There's really no way to start over, you just have to start something new. But what if you get so caught up in the past that you don't really know which direction to go?

I don't really know where to begin. I know what is important to me, but right now I feel like I'm in a maze and I don't know how to get to where I'm going. What's worse is that I simply can't stop to think things through. The world moves with or without me. I'm amazed by how many people can ignore this situation. They make it seem so easy, and to me they all seem so much stronger. Why can't I be like them? I have that choice, but it's difficult to just change.

I'm completely lost. Everything doesn't seem to make sense, and I'm tired of trying to understand everything, but I have to. I have dreams. It's easier for someone who doesn't have dreams to let something like this go. My mind is simply clouded, and one thing I've noticed is that when I'm in my house, these thoughts and feelings heighten. What is with this place. I wish I could just get away. I don't want to stay here.