A Writer?

I love writing ever since I was a little girl. It's my second favorite hobby. The first one is drawing, since I liked this longer. I've been a baby writer since I can remember and the reason why I don't have the courage to call myself a real writer is because of the lack of experience.

Many people call themselves writers because they write stories, poems, essays, etc. But there are some, like me, who only wants to write one thing--a novel. Now I have lots ideas for a novel and the first chapters of those ideas are collecting dust in some envelope in my room. The reason why I can't claim myself as a writer is because I haven't really finished any story, ever.

I have written dozens of stories with beginnings but no ends and I'm a bit worried that after a few years I might still be like this. Writing a novel is difficult for many, and I'm one of those many people who struggles to find the right words to communicate exactly what I want my readers to picture. I believe every writer makes their own rules on what style they'll use for every novel, but what hinders me is the general rule that most people use to categorize a work as a good story.

So here I am wondering if it's all right to call myself a writer when I have nothing to show to claim such title. What does it take to be a writer anyway? As long as you write, you're a writer? But isn't that the same as saying as long as you can take pictures, you're a photographer? I know a lot of people don't agree with that.

So how can you really say that you're a writer?

Old Stories

Been digging up on some of the stories I wrote back when I was still in high school and I'm thinking of continuing some once I'm done with The Hunger. I made Sims 2 edits to inspire me.

Dark Progeny

Character: Akira

 

I Died Yesterday

Character: Ayu and Aya

 

Still trying to get the story to bubble in my head but I'm sure I'll be able to write these better than The Hunger.

^_^

Drawing Manga

I got bored with writing the novel and I'm thinking of letting it rest for a while. So while I'm refreshing my mind I decided to work on my other project. I used to be a Wonderland Online (WLO) player and we have this guild named Heart, and I told my guild leader that I want to create a Manga about our guild. So I started practicing drawing some characters. Here's some of them. I'll post the others once I'm done. ^_^

 

Falling In Love with Fictional Characters

It's been very difficult for me to write scenes with just Dawn and Kyle. When I drew Riley from the beginning, I had difficulty creating a Kyle that would look as good. It took me three attempts to get the right Kyle. Not only that, but the competition between them had already been set by the audience.


I've posted their photos in Facebook to see who would get most votes. Kyle couldn't even catch up to Riley. The score was 8 to 2. And with that in mind, I couldn't allow my brain to like Kyle more, which was difficult since Dawn was supposed to feel good around him. And every time I would write scenes with them together all that was in my mind was Riley is much suited for Dawn.


I believe at some point it was my fault. I shouldn't have allowed votes in the first place, but I needed to know who people preferred as Dawn's leading man in the story. The thing is, before I posted the guys' photos I had no idea who Dawn was going to end up with. And judging by the votes, I might lose my audience if she ended up with Kyle.


I'm not saying that she would end up with Riley as I kept thinking that I might add another character or change the ending, but for now I guess I should let the audience love Riley, while I try to regain my love for Kyle's character. My best friend and I actually prefer him over Riley, but since I haven't written much about him yet, the audience might still have a chance to change their minds.

Complete Set!

 

I'm finally done designing my characters ^_^

There are others but these six are the ones I'm focusing on.

I'm so happy right now... I'm going to write the next chapter. LOL

Click here to read the story.

^_^

Kyle Shade

This is my official Kyle Shade!

He's one of the main characters in my story: The Hunger

I had to remake him twice, 'coz the first one isn't as beautiful.

Anyway, hope you like him...

This is the reason why I needed to remake Kyle.

He needs to look as good as Riley.

But it's kind of hard since Riley's intense features surpasses Kyle's kind face...

But who will end up with Dawn?

I'm not even sure myself. LOL

^_^

Riley Harper

 

This probably isn't the official Riley Harper, but I'll use him for now.

For those of you who don't know him, he's the male lead character in my novel.

If you want to read about it click here..

^_^

The Hunger: Female Cast

 

Okay so these are the main female characters of my story ^_^

I finally finished them... And I'm so tired...

I will be starting with the guys soon... I just need to figure out a way to make them look as hot.

^_^

Read the story HERE 

Jasmine Miller

 

My story's antagonist is here!

Well, she's only one of the bad guys.

Anyway, I really love her!

I would be needing to glam up Tasha to compete with her and Amber!!!

^_^

To read the story click here! 

^_^

Amber Clarke

 

Amber Clarke is Dawn White's best friend.

There's nothing much about her at the beginning of the story, but she also plays a major role.

To read about it, click here 

^_^

Dawn White

 

This is Dawn White.

She's the main character in my novel: The Hunger 

I can't reveal much about her yet. 

I want to keep my readers guessing what her gift is.

Anyway, I hope you'll read the story. 

^_^

They don't look the same do they? 

Tasha is supposed to be prettier than anyone.

I guess she still is.

On with the next character!

I'm gonna draw the boys last.

^_^

Tasha Harper

 

Tasha Harper had always been sweet, kind and graceful. 

But ever since she was a little girl, she always had problems making friends. 

It didn't bother her much because she enjoys being alone, and because it was the only way to keep the voices away. 

From the day she was born, Tasha Harper could read people's thoughts, although not too well. 

She plays an important role in the main character's life in my novel, The Hunger.

^_^

The Hunger: Cover Art Round 2

Here's round two! I'm starting to enjoy making these ^_^.

 

Here's my original drawing...

 

The Hunger: Cover Art

Hi everyone!

I went out of my writing comfort zone for a while to get some fresh ideas. I don't want the novel to get boring. Anyway, in order for creativity to kick in again I decided to draw a cover art for the novel.

Well, I don't think I'll use it if by some miracle it gets published but it keeps me writing. hope you like it ^_^.

 

This is the original picture I used for the cover. I drew this first.

^_^

Anime-Inspired

I've watched lots of animes lately and inspiration started bursting out. I managed to finish chapter four of my story. Yay!

Anyway, I'm tired and out of blood, so I'll rest for a bit. I got some stuff to do tomorrow anyway. Wish me luck. Hopefully my creative juices won't run out. ^_^

Yield Avenue "Tungkol Sa Pangarap"

The lead singer is a good friend of mine, and we used to go to the same high school. I've seen them perform live and they totally rock! This is one of their music videos. I love this song. Some of you might not understand it because it's in Tagalog, but for those Filipinos out there, I present to you YIELD AVENUE!

My Lame Drawings

I wanted to practice portrait and anime drawing. I still need more practice. These illustrations aren't good enough.

 

 

Looking For Tinkerbell

I've been really busy with college stuff that my mind has become too tired to make use of my imagination. I can't picture the scenes for my novel. If only I have more time to relax, but I'm having a hard time keeping up with my major that I can't even think of relaxing. "Just three more years," I kept reminding myself--it's not very encouraging actually.

I need to place myself in Neverland, or some deep fantasy world to unleash my imagination. Movies help but I don't have time to watch one. "Just three more years..." But I'm not really sure if I want to be an accountant. I just like how much they're earning, but I don't like what they do to earn it. It's too much stress for my taste, and that's not good for creativity.

Where is my muse, my fairy, my Tinkerbell?

Do-Over

Isn't the new year supposed to give you a chance to have a fresh start? It's like a the moment when you press the reset button so you can pretend that everything that went wrong can be fixed. There's really no way to start over, you just have to start something new. But what if you get so caught up in the past that you don't really know which direction to go?

I don't really know where to begin. I know what is important to me, but right now I feel like I'm in a maze and I don't know how to get to where I'm going. What's worse is that I simply can't stop to think things through. The world moves with or without me. I'm amazed by how many people can ignore this situation. They make it seem so easy, and to me they all seem so much stronger. Why can't I be like them? I have that choice, but it's difficult to just change.

I'm completely lost. Everything doesn't seem to make sense, and I'm tired of trying to understand everything, but I have to. I have dreams. It's easier for someone who doesn't have dreams to let something like this go. My mind is simply clouded, and one thing I've noticed is that when I'm in my house, these thoughts and feelings heighten. What is with this place. I wish I could just get away. I don't want to stay here.

Simple Update

It's been weeks since I posted anything. I have a lot to say but I don't want to tell them. The past few weeks had been crazy I'm still trying to get back on my feet.

I'm trying not to get in touch with my emotions 'coz it seems to be running my life, which is not good.

I'm happy that I'm still getting a lot of good feedback on my novel even if I can't figure out what to write next. I think I'll work on it tomorrow while I'm doing laundry. It's time to get chapter three to five posted on storywrite.com...

Anyway, this would be one of my shortest posts. I still got so much stuff to deal with, and it's nearly Christmas, which worries me. I'll get back here when I have time and hopefully with something exciting to tell. LOL.