Practice

I named this one Damien, 'coz the brush I used for the green circles came from a guy named Damien, I think.

Anyway, just practicing for discovering techniques, but I don't think there's much improvement. Maybe I should really invest on a better tablet... Or maybe I should just go to art school, (but that's unlikely to happen, hmph! -dream slowly fades-)

What do you think?

Bound

Sometimes when I think a lot, it seems like my world becomes smaller. Ever noticed that when you spend more time doing one thing everything just revolves around it? It happens at any age I guess.

When I was a little girl, I was trapped in a fantasy world where what matters above all is to play and have fun, and I just see the entire world as a playground. Then when I became a teenager and puberty sank in, my mind was wrapped around crushes and making friends. What mattered to me was looking good and getting noticed. Then college came along with minor changes with my thinking. I buried my mind with thoughts of becoming successful and all I did was study my butt off. Of course, I still socialized but I was consumed by my dreams that everything I did had to do something with achieving just that. And right now, I just want to write and that's all I can think about.

The world becomes smaller as you focus too much in something, and I can't help but wonder if that's a good thing.

Tick Tock

I feel like the white rabbit in Alice in Wonderland. I'm late for something, but I can't figure out what that something is. I've been having this feeling since last year. It's like something is telling me to hurry, and right now I feel like the clock is ticking a little louder than usual.

I have to finish it. I have to finish the book--or books. It made me wonder if this was the reason why I was given a gift to write and draw. Was it really to send out this message?

It's funny how paranoia creeps on you when you spend most of your time alone, seeing the world through a monitor. But even if I try to be normal and go out like everybody else, when the world stops for a second, I could still hear the clock ticking.

I'm late, I'm late for a very special date...

Why Bother?

I want to study art or writing, whichever is available, but instead I'm stuck calculating money. I don't like it, so why bother? I'm planning on getting a job and pay for classes in the process... I'm not really sure if I could do that though... I'm guessing I might flunk a few subjects this semester, I don't have the heart to work hard for a good grade anymore. It's just that I don't want to be computing numbers for the rest of my life. I need creativity! So why bother?

Invisible Wall

Okay so here I am writing something else when I should be focused on writing my novel more. I swear I want to beat myself up for procrastinating.

The thing is, I'm having Kyle issues at the moment and I'm not sure if my choices for his character's actions would cause my readers to hate him. I don't want them to hate Kyle! But anyway, I was actually at that part of my chapter when I just stopped writing and told myself, I'm not really sure if I should be going in this direction. After that I turned my computer off and did the only thing I could. I daydreamed and wrote notes and played with the idea in my head.

Everything was okay, I was able to handle the obstacles it's just that...I can't write it. It's stupid actually. How can I not write something I can write?The information is there, everything has fallen into place, but for the past week all I've done was just re-read the chapter and just stare at the blank space at the end of the page. I can't do it and I can't figure out why I'm so afraid to touch the subject. And with that in mind, I feel like the world of The Hunger is getting smaller by the day.

Is being a writer really healthy? I mean, being able to finish a chapter is really rewarding. It makes me feel good about myself but once I get to the point where I can't really write anything, I feel like I've bestowed upon myself this huge problem that wasn't even supposed to exist if I had decided not to write in the first place. The whole idea of wanting to write something, but not wanting to write it had put this heavy weight on my shoulders that every time I would sit in front of the computer this weight would become heavier and my mind would be blocked by an invisible wall, hindering me from continuing to the next paragraph of the story.

Is there like a degree of writer's block? Some writers actually seek therapy to cure this appropriate term for laziness that I was considering of doing the same. But alas, living in this country limits any benefits a normal person should have. So the only thing left for me to think of is how to break the invisible wall and just get the writing over with.

A Writer?

I love writing ever since I was a little girl. It's my second favorite hobby. The first one is drawing, since I liked this longer. I've been a baby writer since I can remember and the reason why I don't have the courage to call myself a real writer is because of the lack of experience.

Many people call themselves writers because they write stories, poems, essays, etc. But there are some, like me, who only wants to write one thing--a novel. Now I have lots ideas for a novel and the first chapters of those ideas are collecting dust in some envelope in my room. The reason why I can't claim myself as a writer is because I haven't really finished any story, ever.

I have written dozens of stories with beginnings but no ends and I'm a bit worried that after a few years I might still be like this. Writing a novel is difficult for many, and I'm one of those many people who struggles to find the right words to communicate exactly what I want my readers to picture. I believe every writer makes their own rules on what style they'll use for every novel, but what hinders me is the general rule that most people use to categorize a work as a good story.

So here I am wondering if it's all right to call myself a writer when I have nothing to show to claim such title. What does it take to be a writer anyway? As long as you write, you're a writer? But isn't that the same as saying as long as you can take pictures, you're a photographer? I know a lot of people don't agree with that.

So how can you really say that you're a writer?

Old Stories

Been digging up on some of the stories I wrote back when I was still in high school and I'm thinking of continuing some once I'm done with The Hunger. I made Sims 2 edits to inspire me.

Dark Progeny

Character: Akira

 

I Died Yesterday

Character: Ayu and Aya

 

Still trying to get the story to bubble in my head but I'm sure I'll be able to write these better than The Hunger.

^_^

Drawing Manga

I got bored with writing the novel and I'm thinking of letting it rest for a while. So while I'm refreshing my mind I decided to work on my other project. I used to be a Wonderland Online (WLO) player and we have this guild named Heart, and I told my guild leader that I want to create a Manga about our guild. So I started practicing drawing some characters. Here's some of them. I'll post the others once I'm done. ^_^

 

Falling In Love with Fictional Characters

It's been very difficult for me to write scenes with just Dawn and Kyle. When I drew Riley from the beginning, I had difficulty creating a Kyle that would look as good. It took me three attempts to get the right Kyle. Not only that, but the competition between them had already been set by the audience.


I've posted their photos in Facebook to see who would get most votes. Kyle couldn't even catch up to Riley. The score was 8 to 2. And with that in mind, I couldn't allow my brain to like Kyle more, which was difficult since Dawn was supposed to feel good around him. And every time I would write scenes with them together all that was in my mind was Riley is much suited for Dawn.


I believe at some point it was my fault. I shouldn't have allowed votes in the first place, but I needed to know who people preferred as Dawn's leading man in the story. The thing is, before I posted the guys' photos I had no idea who Dawn was going to end up with. And judging by the votes, I might lose my audience if she ended up with Kyle.


I'm not saying that she would end up with Riley as I kept thinking that I might add another character or change the ending, but for now I guess I should let the audience love Riley, while I try to regain my love for Kyle's character. My best friend and I actually prefer him over Riley, but since I haven't written much about him yet, the audience might still have a chance to change their minds.

Complete Set!

 

I'm finally done designing my characters ^_^

There are others but these six are the ones I'm focusing on.

I'm so happy right now... I'm going to write the next chapter. LOL

Click here to read the story.

^_^

Kyle Shade

This is my official Kyle Shade!

He's one of the main characters in my story: The Hunger

I had to remake him twice, 'coz the first one isn't as beautiful.

Anyway, hope you like him...

This is the reason why I needed to remake Kyle.

He needs to look as good as Riley.

But it's kind of hard since Riley's intense features surpasses Kyle's kind face...

But who will end up with Dawn?

I'm not even sure myself. LOL

^_^

Riley Harper

 

This probably isn't the official Riley Harper, but I'll use him for now.

For those of you who don't know him, he's the male lead character in my novel.

If you want to read about it click here..

^_^

The Hunger: Female Cast

 

Okay so these are the main female characters of my story ^_^

I finally finished them... And I'm so tired...

I will be starting with the guys soon... I just need to figure out a way to make them look as hot.

^_^

Read the story HERE 

Jasmine Miller

 

My story's antagonist is here!

Well, she's only one of the bad guys.

Anyway, I really love her!

I would be needing to glam up Tasha to compete with her and Amber!!!

^_^

To read the story click here! 

^_^

Amber Clarke

 

Amber Clarke is Dawn White's best friend.

There's nothing much about her at the beginning of the story, but she also plays a major role.

To read about it, click here 

^_^

Dawn White

 

This is Dawn White.

She's the main character in my novel: The Hunger 

I can't reveal much about her yet. 

I want to keep my readers guessing what her gift is.

Anyway, I hope you'll read the story. 

^_^

They don't look the same do they? 

Tasha is supposed to be prettier than anyone.

I guess she still is.

On with the next character!

I'm gonna draw the boys last.

^_^

Tasha Harper

 

Tasha Harper had always been sweet, kind and graceful. 

But ever since she was a little girl, she always had problems making friends. 

It didn't bother her much because she enjoys being alone, and because it was the only way to keep the voices away. 

From the day she was born, Tasha Harper could read people's thoughts, although not too well. 

She plays an important role in the main character's life in my novel, The Hunger.

^_^

The Hunger: Cover Art Round 2

Here's round two! I'm starting to enjoy making these ^_^.

 

Here's my original drawing...

 

The Hunger: Cover Art

Hi everyone!

I went out of my writing comfort zone for a while to get some fresh ideas. I don't want the novel to get boring. Anyway, in order for creativity to kick in again I decided to draw a cover art for the novel.

Well, I don't think I'll use it if by some miracle it gets published but it keeps me writing. hope you like it ^_^.

 

This is the original picture I used for the cover. I drew this first.

^_^

Anime-Inspired

I've watched lots of animes lately and inspiration started bursting out. I managed to finish chapter four of my story. Yay!

Anyway, I'm tired and out of blood, so I'll rest for a bit. I got some stuff to do tomorrow anyway. Wish me luck. Hopefully my creative juices won't run out. ^_^