I'm Not Very Sociable Am I?

I remembered my first day in kindergarten. I was a quiet kid, but I was always the girl who ended up getting into fights. I didn't follow or copy the other kids, I liked doing things by myself and I didn't mind being surrounded by people as long as they left me alone. The kids in my class didn't like me very much, because there was this one popular girl who really hated me. She was used to getting what she wanted and everyone did what she wanted them to do--except me. I never liked following crowds, and I don't like being around crowds.

Up until now, I still don't mind being alone. I actually prefer it. I like doing things by myself and having people around just slows me down. Fortunately, I didn't grow up to become completely anti-social. I have good friends, but I have grown to become more picky in choosing people I trust. I started to believe that the less people I allow to be close to me, the less disappointment they'll bring.

Anyway, life has taught me that it's alright to rely on people but I don't rely on them more than I rely on myself. But sometimes I wonder, if I continue to be like this, would I be able to say the same things when the people who tries to come in my life stops knocking? It is a common saying, "be careful what you wish for." Will I truly be alright living the rest of my life by myself?