Fitting Squares into Circles

I feel like I somehow made a big mistake in choosing what I want to do with my life. I feel like ice in hot water, melting quickly--diminishing instead of being contributory. It's like fitting a square into a circle. I know they are not the same shape and they don't belong together, and yet I still try to fit one figure into the other.

I figured my choice would be very useful to me. A wise decision as some might say, but it's not really what I want. I know it inside but I still chose it. It was like I had two roads in front of me. On the first one, I see my dreams, and on the second one, I see sure success. Was it reasonable to choose success at the price of my dreams? I don't want to end up like those people who are unfulfilled because they never had a chance to do what they wanted in life.

If somehow I won't be able to go both paths, how will this affect me? According to my Business Psychology class, the repressed desires I have are stored in the unconscious level of my mind. I don't think it's good for me to have those there or anywhere in my brain at all. I feel like I'm always deprived and I just write to compensate for it, but it's not enough.

I've seen a lot of success stories on TV, and read some on the Internet as well. Those people worked hard, and I mean really hard to reach their success. In the process they also sacrificed a lot. I wonder if I can do what they did. Can I handle the pressure? I'm not very good with restrictions but I'm willing to break that so I can take that other road as well.

How long will it take? Everyday I feel like I'm running out of time, and I feel like I need to fast forward everything. I want to taste the success of fulfilling my dreams as soon as I can. Is it wrong to rush? I don't want to be old and wrinkly before I get there.

The only way I see this working is if I use the path I chose now as a stepping stone. Is it possible? Will I make it? I wish I knew. Hopefully I'll be able to decide soon. Time is running out and money is being wasted. I need to figure out what to do, and hopefully this time my choice would be the right one.