The Song in my Brain

This morning I woke up from a dream. It's that guy again. I've been dreaming about him for the past few months, and it's driving me nuts. I don't really want to remember him everyday. I don't really care about him anymore--not after those countless times he ignored me. I knew I liked him for 2 years before but I wish my brain would quit remembering him. Is there a pill I can take to erase my memory?

Anyway, I don't remember much of those dreams, only the fact that they were getting on my nerves. There was a time when I dream about him every night. I wonder what my subconscious is telling me? I seriously don't have any feelings for him anymore.

After I read my diary, I laughed at how ridiculous I was obsessing over a guy who's not even attractive. But I have to admit he has nice shoulders. Maybe the shoulders did it.

The reason why I'm telling all this is because, when I was in high school (back when I was crushing on him) I wrote this song. It had nothing to do with him, it was more like some happy emo crap, if there's such a thing. Anyway I really like that song.

This morning I woke up from a dream of him and I remembered the song. I remember sending the whole lyrics to him via text message. I know it sounds nuts, but high school students are supposed to be dumb when it comes to these sorts of things.

I tried recalling the lyrics, thinking that I might have wrote it in my old Garfield notebook--which I might have thrown away ( I hope not). I'm sort of wishing, although there's a slim chance, that he could've wrote the lyrics I sent to him. But that's like dreaming I have wings and can fly, it'll never happen in real life.

But if there's a chance he did, there's no way for me to contact him. I don't think he even remembers me. The song's title is Destiny's Arms. It's about wishing to see the future so mistakes can be avoided. It's Evanescence -inspired.

I need to complete the lyrics so I can create the music. I want to use it in this animation I'm planning to create once I get my computer fixed. I remember most of the song except for the rest of the second verse. I only remember its first line. After that, it's all lalalalalala, and a lot of humming.

That song might help me financially, who knows. I just wish I keep my stuff in a file, but then again my computer crashes all the time so that might not help.

*Sigh*

What's a girl to do in this situation? I need that second verse bad. Once I complete it, I can have some friends help me with it, and maybe I can sell it for a few G's or use it myself for talent showcase.

My friends, if you guys remember me singing it and you remember the second verse, please send it to me right away. I might pay you...after I get called for my job interview.

Well, that's it. I'm gonna post the song once I complete it. Wish me luck ^_^.